Alone is not lonely.

I woke up one morning a couple weeks ago I was thankful for the sky. I also had a revelation of what it truly means to be a woman. My journey to understanding something so much larger than me, yet it is me. Woman. To be a God-fearing woman the woman I wanted to be.

I could feel the strength it takes what it feels like on me. How it fits me. It is not easy, but it is significant. To honestly embrace it alone but never lonely. I am learning something about what it means to be seen alone. It means strength. The type of strength that carries us forward. To not be ashamed of going through things difficult things. The things that have made us into the beautiful strong woman we are. A life not absent of hardships and troubles. Maybe not cookie cutter. But a life rich of experiences that have allowed us to change to make choices. To love God deeply ourselves, and others.

Lonely is something different it means we have a false belief that what need is found outside of us instead of inside us. Instead of in our relationship with Christ Jesus. That There is something that I am missing in someone or someplace I cannot get to when I need to.

How strength requires faith. It requires a big leap of faith. You better get used to standing out! And not always having someone to agree with you. Not having someone there beside me when I needed them or thought I did. The ability to stand alone no matter what approval I was or was not going to receive.

To be unchanged in my mission. To stand when everything else falls. Or just to stand. Knowing it is the right thing. Maybe while thing we never needed fall of us.

The type of woman that surprises herself.

I know You always knew I was this woman. Even when I did not. You seen me past all the stuff that got in the way, clearly honestly. I get some of my no's now. You have no idea what Your capable of. I am still moving through this for the rest of my life. What it means to stand when people want to shoot you! Maybe I will never be understood. Maybe that is ok. maybe I am giving up that need and learning to walk it out.

Giving up my need. For something better. Greater.

Jesus Christ Forevermore