I am near

Your are Near

In the middle of a loud room, I still feel like I am the only one in the room. Close but far away. You do not miss a beat literally sitting here thinking about you always. Blending in, not so much. I thought this was supposed to be a little bit easier than it is, I guess.

Turns out it is not so easy and for many reasons beyond my own comprehension and what I hear and see with my naked eye. So here we are again. I am in a place where books are shelved, marveling at your way. Fully trusting unafraid. I am loved.

Not by everybody but I am undoubtedly loved and held between these notes that are in my ear.

I couldn’t be in the middle of a large room without you drawing me out. A small one not enough room for you and I? So what is a woman to do? To bigger spaces a life full of your mystery.

I have been here before. I have made peace with it. That I am largely not understood, and it is actually pretty normal. Thank you for Your Spirit that helps me to relate to things here on earth. The light is getting brighter in a world that predicts darkness has overcome it. I know this to be a foolishness we carry. A season that will never cease the ways of God spread wide over me.

I would like to ask you how you feel but truthfully, I already know. It is everywhere around me. I know I never say that, but I mean it. We are speaking even when we are not speaking. I feel Your breath sustaining me surging this body that You gave to me that I will be loosed from and into immortality with You.

What is close? What is near? We are. I forgot to say thank you and you must forgive me. You did something to me that was so miraculous that it became a part of me. It is like my heart to me now without which I would cease to exist. I have accepted this gift that by Your mercy I am able to walk it out naturally. Even when it is evident there is something a little bit more than meets the eye. Thank you.

I did a silly human thing. This body of death that is keeping me in position to fulfil Your purpose on this earth. All the ways to be near a person.

I am never alone, and I can honestly say I have never once been lonely. My companion steadfast.

Thank you for eyes to see You. Clearly.

Where could I go? Where would I want to go? That You would not find me. You always do.

You lay with me at night and have blessed me with rest. Rest in a world where it is not always easy to come by.

Thank you for waking me up each morning.

You know where to find my tears when they are not on my face. I believe they are in thy bottle in Your book.

Wrapped in Your love. A little more sentence would not suffice.

To Words. The WORD.

Jesus Christ Forevermore.

~ A woman who knows you can handle me.

Thank you for Your clean hands that heal me.