I'll be seeing you

Developing standards and not being afraid of what happens when you allow yourself to think beyond your current circumstances. To think beyond your current experiences. That You are not limited to a past that you once lived.

That we have given ourselves the permission we need to become the person we want to be. In all circumstances no excuses. This is who we are. A standard that is lived out and will not be trifled with. I am giving myself permission to be the person I want to be in Christ lived out throughout my life here on the earth. That is unlike anything I have ever entirely experienced before I refuse to be molded into a previous version of myself that I have outgrown this is who I am, and this is what I am doing. I am allowing myself to be responsible for the things I do and say. I and no one else will be responsible.

I am laying down all the preset existential ideologies even when I hear myself being spoke about in a way that is foreign to me. I recognize that may be my first name, but I have no idea who you are talking about. Whatever is that called?

I am giving myself permission to know that I am proud and must be humbled by the Almighty God himself that I may Walk through this life with the humility it requires. There is something so forgiving about humility. There is something also so powerful about humility. It speaks it own language with no need to announce itself.

I will not be afraid of the things I discover about myself that I thought arrogantly would not be there. I will face myself unafraid of what I see in the mirror. I will be the one who will look me in the eye and not take any of my crap.

I will not allow it. I will admit my shortcomings quickly in the ear as I know I am weak and need progress. I will not put others down to make myself appear larger. I will let life speak for itself and leave it where it lies. I give myself permission to feel the way I do without judging myself if I am wrong or right for it. I am on a journey of understanding complex and simple things.

That the more I can accept that I do not understand the more I am able to learn my own insignificance over and over until it hurts. Until it is success. Until it is humility. Unafraid to start over and not hang on.

Building the quality of relationships, I see fit for my future loving all. The way I am supposed to.

To learn to love and love over and over again it is not tiresome to offer love. Not if it is genuine and comes from Jesus Christ my hope of glory.

Less ego more heart. Never losing the fight that was put down inside of me. That is, it. You can never take the fight out of me, whether it is understood or resounds completely it is there and it always will be.

Jesus Christ Forevermore.