The Young China Doll

"If I must smash so be it."

As the young Victoria so elegantly put it. Courageous Sovereign.

Most of this life is the awakening to the outrageous collection of all the lies everyone including myself has every spoken, written, told, and gossiped about me and my identity.

Even the lies the ones I let rule myself. It is possible to be governed by lies.

But a suddenly happens when all those lies and the way maker KING of KINGS Jesus Christ shows up and very simply deletes them all. Only by the Father Himself. No more fear, doubt or manipulation, and no agendas. When all the trash is taken out never to return.

In all His glory for His good pleasure and I'm only in awe. Just like that with a click, and a delightful boom is heard El Shaddi His amazing glory comes and knocks it all out. With a written declaration pure as silver a WORD that cannot be revoked.

The majesty of the only true God and living God is made known in power. He never falls off His throne and if you think He has maybe He has allowed you this deception, to believe in a strong delusion about whatever your flesh desires to.

His mighty wave of movement into the moment I was created for, our coronations with Holy Spirit, our position, our royal decrees released here on earth backed up by the Kingdom of Heaven.

Glorious! When the Father places a crown of life and glory on our head and says go forth my child I am with you. Many will oppose but fear not I AM with you. I AM Father God fearless. Hades trembles, and I smile because my name is written in the book in Heaven. The LORD of Hosts ready to draw His sword. Awesome mighty God of valor.

The Lord God of Israel goes with you, my beloved, He whispers. Do not be afraid of the faces of a man, for I AM the LORD of HOSTS, no harm shall come to you. Touch, not my anointed ones do my prophets no harm.

As I swallow my flesh I tremble, at the ordinances of God. My joints are barely able to contain His glory. All flesh seems to overwhelm by the Spirit. As my feet walk out of the inner courts of my Father's house, tears fill my heart and eyes. I imagined I could be and stay there with Him. My home I say I desire to stay here with you Abba, Jesus, Holy Spirit forever. As a daughter and general, I know the Kingdom must be advanced and much is left to be done.

Not yet my little dove He says comforting my heart. The great commission, the great rescue mission of His children.

As I think on the things of God I realize nothing not one thing in my life was ever wasted not one tear, not one battle.

I realize now I will need it all for what lies ahead. I humbly pray may my light always shine brightly and the wondrous love of Jesus Christ flow through my veins. I only live to please you Father and to do your will.

I am Yours and everything created knows it. This is all you Lord for your glory. Fear, shame, opinions of flesh you can go straight to hades empty where you came from. I know whose I am who I belong to. What can man do to me? It is unwise to test the Lord Your God. What I am? His. Why I am here? In this space. Everything disappears when you are here, close.

I know you hold me in your glorious hands.

I belong to the Lord God of Israel, we are one. I am the apple of His eye, His precious daughter, a beloved bride. The destination of my life was never the point, and it will never be. It was the spinning of His workmanship on that potter's wheel. What the Lord is forever drawing out of me. So what's in there one may ask? To know is to inquire of Him yourself for yourself. The never-ending Kingdom of God!

I am more than able to drink my cup like Jesus did when it is time, with you Holy Spirit. May I bring you glory, Father.

The burning in the kiln. The real mark was you carrying me Abba by your Holy Spirit (at times dragging me into a much deeper, intimate, love, God-dependence, wisdom, and understanding of you Holy Spirit) Trust me the Holy Spirit is the best teacher! in 1 John the Holy Spirit lays that out for us. Praise you whom all blessing flow, let this eagle soar into the whirlwind of the fragrance of heaven. Here we go! Take it all everything is already yours.

One of my favorite movies is that called the Young Victoria I have found much inspiration from her courageous, elegance and strength. She was a very interesting monarchy and she had a historical divine character for someone her age.

In this life, I have experienced many false fake mortals filled with deceitful intentions of only manipulating the things of the Lord to further themselves, merely and poorly attempting to take advantage of me, and in a real extension our Heavenly Father. My inexperience, my moments of fragility forgetting who indwells inside of me. Just like the young Queen Victoria. Sons of Adam seeking with venom only after selfish carnal political advantages. Lost without love. Desiring control, power, position, more camera light, and action, vipers, deceivers. Creeping and maneuvering, grandstanding waiting to present their schemes covered in honey lurking behind their smiling teeth.

Fortunately, the Holy Spirit sees the inside of us mortals the motives of our hearts, a mindless foolishness pure insult to the King Jesus Christ. It is true some vessels are made for glory and others for destruction. We are not to question the ways of GOD. Who are we but His breath?

However, we know this is the human fallen nature though.

We still must pray for those who seek to use us spitefully may the Lord have mercy on all. Praying that they come to genuine repentance. Imposters hidden scorpions brooding, scheming waiting to sting. We bless them brethren but we do not in no such circumstances permit them around us nor are such fit in our inner courts. Let the dead bury the dead. Our inner courts are for the very very few one or two the Lord has assigned to us.

Remember to be wise as a serpent and innocent as a dove. Remembering the religious men betrayed our King Jesus do not be naive or foolish in thinking others will not so do it to us family. It comes with the territory do not be alarmed. My hope is one Johnathan be with you all. I bless you.

Let those crazy enough to defy our Lord to do so as it is His justice that reigns. Who can come against Gods elect? It is Him who justifies. We look upwards towards our prize our King Jesus awaiting Him, allowing only Him to fill our gaze. We are not in love with this world or the things in it. Only in doing the will of our Father going home.

Pay no attention to those who have deception in their hearts, do not be discouraged. Hold the faith. It is the Holy Spirit who saves. Give them nothing concerning the will of the Father over your life. What is yours is yours and what is theirs is theirs. Let there be no envying amongst us.

Remember the agenda of hades is to keep you from doing the Father's will usurp and kill you from boldly walking out your purpose for the Kingdom. To steal your confidence and chain the gospel of Jesus Christ which cannot be chained.

There will always be some other self-proclaimed expert out there who will puff up at you and seem to know better than you and I. Our adversaries strengthen us and no one can take what God has for you, not even our own attempts of self-sabotage, Remember this man named Jonah.

For all of my fellow Canadians who think May 24th is about beer, it is really about Queen Victoria's Birthday! So next May 24th give some respect where respect is due.

That being said Queen Victoria was deemed too young by her family her Mother and her Mother's evil controller who sought to usurp the young princess through her mother. The young princess had a very difficult childhood in what seemed to be all a little girl could dream of she lived in a palace. There is still pain in palaces, sorry to bring the hammer down on that living in a palace is not going to fill in that void in our hearts, only Jesus Christ can.

The young Victorias mother widowed and lonely allowed this wicked man to torment young Victoria most of her childhood. His political agenda was to push her to sign a regency, his plan was to find an opportune moment to get her to relinquish her powers.

Sound like a devil we all know?

Thankfully the young princess even on her ill bed refused to surrender to this evil man's demands and held her position. Her birthright. Thankfully the King of England at the time was very fond of the little young Victoria, and not so fond of her mother and her poor choice of company.

The King of England gave favor to Victoria. He knew his death was approaching and his last Birthday wish was to see it through that Victoria would sit on his throne. Brute force and ignorance can go a long way. So it was so. He died and Victoria became the very young Queen of England. That power shift as you can imagine to the much older crowd was not easily swallowed. Snarling bitter power players gnashing their teeth.

Naturally, by the standards of the time, Victoria was deemed too young and unprepared to fulfill her role as the Queen of England. Feircly she did not let the fear of failure strip her of what the Lord declared (This not so shocking if you have walked with Jesus long enough, her own family.)

Satan loves to attack us through our families. Or try to undermine Gods word in our lives through others.

Between her unapproving elder relatives, and all the aristocrats at court she being secretly despised for the very position in which she was born for and never coveted or asked for. It was an Ordinance of God. She carried this weight and this scepter.

As her time of announcement approached like the sun, to take her rightful place on the throne the day of her coronation. Deceitful plans and schemes were made by all those envious of her position, plots to overthrow her reign through many creative devices and tactics. Even love anything to move her hand.

Usurping the young Queen and her powers become the focal point of her beginning. Many thought she needed a man to control her this was the agenda at the courts. People were expecting her to fail, and I'm sure she did as she learned and went on.

This is life, no leader has no failure in fact if you do not have some failures behind you I will question your integrity and leadership.

This to me the most beautiful part of Queen Victoriais her knowing all these vicious contentions set against her. I admire the Queen as she did not submit to false authority and walked in her God-given right as Queen. I always take heed of persons who try to force man-made authority or control over our lives or have an unnatural interest in the submission of others. As this is not a Godly characteristic of the Kingdom of God but of our adversary.

Trust me I believe in submission to Jesus Christ. However, if you as human have to ask for it constantly highlighting it you're doing something wrong. Likely masking an ungodly interest that is wicked and flesh. Steming from a lack of our own leadership abilities, we then project our insecurity on others.

I love the LORD and not once has He ever asked me to submit now or else? He loves me so much and I know with all my heart that He has my best interest at heart when He does anything, therefore I naturally am willing to submit to the LORD. Not to brute force and ignorance. The Lord never does that family. So why should sons of Adam?

He never forces us to even love Him and He could. Through the established relationship, the Lord can do whatever He wants in my life I trust Him with my soul only because I know He is truly for me. He doesn't have a carnal agenda.

Family any person (s) attempting to force and throw the principle of "submission" on you which is just a mask for the real intention of manipulation take it right before the throne. All those who seek truth with sincerity no good thing is withheld from us if we can remove our egos and take our pride out of the way.

Those the Lord brings will be there to stand by you NOT in front of you.

Please do not misinterpret what I am saying either, there is a proper God Ordinance for submission and collaboration in the Kingdom. Know that we serve an all-knowing mighty God and in that He has prepared all things before us especially alliance and relationship.

Be wise my family in this hour. The time of naive mindsets has passed long ago.

Jesus Christ models love so perfectly that it fills our hearts we naturally feel safe and protected, we fall into Him. It is never even a conversation I am undone by His love. Not His hammer fist.

Back on track here to Queen Victoria, she was incredible. However, I admire her courage to sit on that throne with feet not even being able to touch the ground. A petite mighty woman of valor.

As the weapons of warfare were launched to penetrate the inner courts of the young Victoria. Arranged husbands, politicians, ladies in waiting, relatives, she had very few she could trust. The loneliness of power set in I am sure of it. It is a long lonely road to walk with much responsibility. Most people don't get that. We see the speech, dress, and crown. We don't see the torment and sacrifices. The lonely nights, tears, sufferings, pain, the invitations passed on.

All sought to grab her royal skirts and power. However, she had one alliance one true faithful alliance. An old friend she knew while still the princess. One who sincerely took a genuine liking to Victoria. The genuine Prince Albert. A man who yes, had a manipulative prying uncle who had plans to use the throne for his own advantages.

However, sincerely we cannot help what families we are born in. His uncle pressed him to spy on the young princess and to send him reports of the growth of their personal relationship, to gain political advantage for him and his family.

Prince Albert grew a genuine true affection for Victoria and longed to be by her side through her reign to protect the Queen who ended up being his dear friend. He could see things she could not those influencing her incorrectly misusing her innocence.

Prince Albert could easily discern the schemes circulating around Victoria. Things changed when she became the Queen her duty changed her privacy and so on as is custom and one expects. The Prince had a harder time making visits to access an audience with his friend who was now the Queen.

The Queens time now being accounted for. He relentlessly never stopped trying to get the ok to stay near her in England to help advise the young Queen. Hopefully to protect her as a friend no agenda.

As time moved and passed the more Prince Albert got to know Queen Victoria the harder of a time he had spying on her for his uncle. He was in love with her.

He had prepared for a pretentious stuck up royal, and what he got was a real, genuine, human being, a loving courageous woman. As time grew so did his affections he wanted to ask the Queen to marry him, however; he was not able to because of her position. I guess the Queen had to make the invitation to him. As her position deemed.

He had to wait for the marriage proposal from the Queen. Eventually, Victoria realized her need and love for Albert and the two married.

Prince Albert manned up and started to help Victoria clean house. He was determined to make her a good Queen. Eventually, even better she began to share half her work of being Queen with her Prince Albert.

Not to mention dear Prince Albert took a bullet for Queen Victoria and their unborn child in a carriage ride. The workings of some deranged citizen, who wanted to kill the Queen because of a political difference. I am sure all was very traumatizing for both I can imagine! How to respond to something like that publically and being pregnant. Thankfully Albert instinctually shielded the Queen in time and recovered he lived on to reign WITH Victoria in harmony and brought much good to England and many other nations.

In the end, it doesn't matter what any others think but God when it comes to our purpose. No opinions or approval needed if God says yes please do and fly my eagles.

Heavenly Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit

Oh, how I need you more than ever. I love you and I bless you, Lord. Blessed be the name of the Lord. I am so thankful that you are making me into whatever you want to. I pray for your strength and courage like Joshua and Deborah, and the elegance divine favor of Esther and Abagail. I am your instrument to do whatever you want to do. May I make you smile and all the heavenly hosts as we bring heaven here on earth and set captives free. You are amazing. Your ways are perfect. I want to be heartsick for you every day. My first love let us fly together through the clouds and may our coming be like the coming of the sun when it comes out in full strength. Forgive us all of our sins, and have mercy on each of us. Show me a new side of your glory.

Break glass for me Abba.

I pray all these things in the name of the true King

KING of KINGS LORD of LORDS

Jesus Christ

On earth, as it is in heaven

Amen & Amen

~A woman forever in the shadow of the Lion of Judah