The Alone Not Lonely

Self-destruct how many of us are not a fan of being our own worst enemies? We can be the main contributors to the chaos that is ensuing around us. Sometimes we are not. This is rare but not impossible. We cannot get stuck in these pattern and cycles that we know are not good for us. We make choices that affect us worse than we anticipated. Or we were one of those throw the caution to the wind people. Who only later discover fun and reckless can cause us setbacks in our lives. Yes, it does. The part no one tells us it can hurt we do not always come out in the end of our recklessness always a champion.

Sometimes we come out a loser by our own standards we are living below our own expectations, and we know it. No one wants to tell us we want nice. Nice is not always the right answer. Maybe we cut loose and got caught by ourselves or someone else who thought we were someone else. We ditched some accountability. We had to face the heat though at another space in time.

It sucks when we are in a self-destructive mode everything around us is compromised stained with destruction. What will we do? I will not self-destruct with you. Why? because it is the most unhelpful self-hating thing to do for anyone. People who love us will refuse to self-destruct with us. Yes, they will there is a level of respect for oneself and value that we put to a relationship.

We are not willing to sink down the hole with anyone including ourselves. No, I am not sorry, no I will not self-destruct with you out of some strange sense of fragmentation called "love" or support. You thought my support looked like I was giving you an ok to self-destruct. It doesn't. You thought my friendship sounded like agreeing with yourself destruction or particular road or brand leading to destruction. We learn things. The hard way, no, that is not what a relationship or friendship is. At all. Whatever gave you that impression is a lie that we openly endorse. Maybe I never could.

Love is not contributing or watching someone we care about destruct and enable them to do so. That is not what my life is. The back seat to your joy ride that ended in all the stupid choices I never made but watched someone else do in horror. Wondering why this person is wrecking their life.

Where were you on that one friend? Self-destruction is never an option in functioning relationship.

No picking yourself up and respecting ourselves is though. We all have problems yours are not an exception to mine. Self-destruction is not the answer. We have to muscle our own decisions, and we always have choices to make in our lives. Maybe not easy ones, but choices will be made.

That is a bad decision! Have you ever had one of those. It hurts when its people we love and love us. To step out of approval and into making the best decisions of our lives. We are supposed to enjoy making choices not dredge making those big choices and avoid the responsibility. Isn't the responsibility to our own choices the best part?

You are on the path of destruction, and I will not walk down that road with you. Not because I hate you but because I love you or care about you. No, I will not watch you do destructive things to yourself. I will not wait for you either to clean your act up. No, I Will not be here when you finally make your way back. I will be well on my living my own life.

If destruction and self-destruction is on the menu and back seat crash test person is in the future plan. Count me out.

I am not in the business of self-imploding with people in crisis.

Ann

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