It is Well A Perfectly Put Together Mess

It is Well

Do you know the song it is well with my soul? if you don't you need to. What a faith-building masterpiece as a grieving righteous man of God created that after losing his whole family. I love true authentic worship, the real faith building fear crushing kind, that genuinely is birthed out our deepest pain, sufferings, when things we love in this world are no more, and uncertainty. Being stripped down of everything of our strength, and our spirits cry out Abba, Father! It is well with my soul.

We get a glimpse of what really matters and what this life is truly about, a reminder of the precious gift of our salvation through Jesus Christ. A gift that was given to us, so that none can boast. That is what this life is about whether we are distracted from this truth by the world or our sufferings. We must guard our most precious faith at all times, and value it for what it is.

I know it hurts and can be very painful when we experience these moments as human beings. The concept and reality of our own fragility does not seem to set well with us. Sure, we know we are a sack of meat and nothing without the Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit. Trust me I love each and every one of you my sisters and brothers, and I know the battle with the flesh is real.

I wrote this portion below a while ago, and I want to share it firstly with myself as we need to always encourage ourselves in the LORD. We have too! I know it can be hard but we really need to do that without relying on others we need to always put the LORD first. I love notebooks and pens, because of this. We can see the goodness of Jesus in our lives.

Ok, this is my anthem currently. I have been holding onto for this song for my dear life today. I used to love singing this song when it was well! I am mean I guess it really was not well, it was an illusion back in the days when I was not a true worshipper. This time I am singing it! The song has taken on this new meaning to me. I know what it really means for it to be well with my soul.

I am understanding this song this beautiful piece of worship in a deeper beautiful way. Seeing another side of the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is well with my soul no matter what the worldly circumstances look like. It always comes back to living in the flesh and living in a life being led by the Holy Spirit. Knowing when you are moving in your flesh or by the Holy Spirit. It is better for it to be well with my soul and not my carnal appetites. I will bless the Lord in all places of the earth for He is worthy.

"Let it be far from me to not believe even when my eyes can’t see. The mountain that is in front of me. Will be thrown into the midst of the sea."

How we are reminded of our struggles and lack of understanding, wisdom. Just because we cannot see it in our flesh in no means indicate that our loving heavenly Father is not moving on our behalf and heaven is open to me. Or that what seems too good to be true is not real. Faith is a substance. Hope is a substance. It is tangible and just as real as our flesh.

Strangely enough, when I am wounded I see more clearly. In all this earth changing catastrophe, perspective seems to be more alive and correct. In the eye of the storm being tended to like a heavenly princess. Held and cared for, loved, and a soul that is well. I have never felt so blessed and I confess terrified as I move and know with Jesus and the Holy Spirit in a whole new way I have never experienced. The goodness of Jesus. We serve a Good Good Father. Thank you, Jesus living moment to moment, present.

I am terrified and experiencing great peace and joy in my life all at once. All I want is more and more of you Abba, Jesus, Holy Spirit. I can’t stand being away from his presence. At times these past couple weeks, I do not even feel human anymore. It is a very bizarre happening of events, that I am living out with the Holy Spirit. For his glory.

Everything is falling apart to fall together. The risks, decisions, the pain, the joy. All part of his divine providence that I cannot fathom with my natural mind. All I know is I want His will for my life, and whatever He asks me I will. I give Him my yes and amen. If he says I can, well guess what I can. I don’t care what Wanda thinks about Wanda anymore, all I care about is the will of my Father. The Kingdom of Heaven, and if he says to do it I have to do it, and I will do it.

I want more! I want to walk in the Glory and power of the Holy Spirit every day. I want to be a walking miracle so I can bless others my brothers and sisters in Christ. I want to change the world and want to be able to help others change, I want to be who He says I am. I feel like I am growing out of my own skin.

"I want to walk in His presence just like Jesus did. Your glory surrounds me, and I am overwhelmed. Flashes of lightning, rolls of thunder. But I am not afraid, show me your Glory." - great song

Lord change me. All I am is yours. I feel so romanced by you it is the only word I can think of. It is amazing I feel like Esther being prepared for her King, I feel like a royal daughter being prepared for her destiny. I feel the armies of heaven surrounding me every moment of every day. I feel so guarded. You have no idea. I feel the presence of Lord with me everywhere so protective when I go for a walk the Heavenly Hosts escort me everywhere I go. I am being dotted on in a way I have never experienced. Who am I that the Lord be mindful of me thus so my King?

<em>And then later in the evening after bible study</em>

I showed up to bible study and no one showed up but me and my Pastor. Which seems to be the case a lot around here.   We got right into the word and we started talking about Gods will, and obedience. And the scripture we studied together was:

Romans 8: 14

For as many as are led by the spirit of God, these are the sons of God.

Declares the Lord.

He was an answer to my prayers from earlier in the day. He has been a light to me on this portion of my journey and he loves the word of God.

Thank you so much, Jesus, for your faithful servant and Sheppard and for and for answering my prayers today. Thank you for confirming things with me and never letting me down.

Nothing just happens.

When I think about The Father's will for my life it brings me to my knees because it is so beautiful, and it is so Kingdom. His ways for Him, I am so excited, for His glory. I do not own anything I am yet a vessel.

I am speechless right now. I just want to tell everyone that Jesus Christ is worth giving it all away for. He holds nothing back from us, he gives it all. We just must let go of our self and stuff to get His best.

Heavenly Father,

I want to give thanks for your wonders and splendor. Your divine ways that just dumbfound me. The way you put things together everything you do and created is just stunning. The care you put into making a garment and detail of that blows my mind. Then all your precious children the care you put in us. We are your masterpieces. Father in Jesus name continues to draw us in your presence. Release blessing so big we cannot contain or fathom, and let those blessing be blessings on top of blessings, that further the Kingdom of Heaven and exceed all we can ask or imagine. Let your power Holy Spirit manifest in those you are leading to do the will of the Father. I am so thankful Lord Jesus. I do not even like saying the word thank you because it falls short. You have been so good to me. I pray for souls those who never had the opportunity to hear about you. I pray the true gospel of Jesus Christ is preached with fire.

In the name of the KING of KINGS and LORD and LORDS

Jesus Christ forevermore

For his love endures forever and his words are as pure silver

Amen & Amen

~ A woman on the high rock