Naked Healing Restoration With Jesus Only The King

Naked Restoration

Let us discuss the intense seasons of restoration. You know the ones I am talking about the ones that change your entire life. We never get to this point of being done, don't be deceived or be hard on yourself. We are always needing to lean on Jesus and the moments when we think we got it down and we are all good we are the exact opposite.

Self-righteousness is gross to the Lord and our family in Christ. It is communicating that we have decided we no longer need Jesus to handle our lives. We figured it out.

 This will touch down in our soul but I hope it brings praises and pleases the Lord more. I believe these seasons of great restoration never really end. If we are honest, and only by the Holy Spirit can we begin to understand this in a functional way? If we are of the human species and walking with Jesus Christ this is a constant peeling back of layers of ourselves. By His blood we are made whole, by His Spirit we are alive.

This life of love is not what we may think.

Some of us may be right now in this deep in these tides of awareness to it, or maybe you're entering or exiting, moving in and out. It is really whatever our Father is doing through you that will dictate the season's nature.

Tough this is painful and beautiful all at once. Describing transformation is so many different colors, a true butterfly experience. I never could have imagined some of the waves and tides of this beautiful process we all undergo.

In particular, and obviously to address some of my own personal experiences. The "hows", a restoration which is ONLY accomplished by the power of the Holy Spirit, and truly is unique to each person. There is no prototype to this, we are led and guided by the Holy Spirit. We need ears to hear the Holy Spirit in all things life, and every area of our lives. Perfect unity. Especially in restoration and healing. 

I believe all things are God-Ordained, why? because He is in control of it all. He created everything! There are real spiritual dangers when we start to be led by our flesh in things of the Spirit. Murky waters and snares for both vessels it's a two for one deal for our adversary.

Healing and restoration are unique to each person, just like our purposes and destinies in the Kingdom. There is no prototype of how God wants to work in each person's life. Like a hair cut, I think we miss so much when we start and attempt to put limits on God the creator of Heaven and Earth. I think we all need most days to just really sit and soak in and on the word CREATOR, not PHOTOCOPIER.

We are the Lords and He will do as He pleases, when He pleases, how He pleases. Let thy will be done. Nothing is really about us or our selfish ambitions. Which is ironic that when the true radical love of Christ is present, pride and ego cannot be present.

Lord Jesus thank you for bare NAKED restoration. That I can and all of your children can just bare our souls before you and you alone for you are the only one worthy.

I used to contemplate this process of restoration I had my ideas of what this looks, feels, smells like. Holy Spirit is the best teacher too! Never doubt it. It smells less like roses and more like crap! My crap that is.

I thought restoration to be some whimsical may be an all-inclusive vacation where I crushed papaya and mangos. A beach resort with a tropical breeze this type of process.

That it would sort of feel like relaxation, spa, and I came out with a suntan and glossy hair, sipping on my mint tea. Bliss. Restoration.

The world's version of restoration (which is false btw) and largely misguiding. The spa and running away to an all-inclusive resort will not solve our problems. So if you were planning on running away from your family and getting drunk in Cancun, I suggest you heed and grab that bible.

Real restoration Holy Spirit restoration the restoration of one's mind, body, will, emotions, and heart and souls wounds. We all have them to some degree, and if you say you don't you are a LIAR. Devil is a LIAR.

Some more severe understandably so people go through some crazy traumas in life. Depending on our situations some of us are not even aware of some of the trauma we endured it is not in our conscious. Yeah, junk you don't even know about, that you don't need, driving us nuts. Yep.

I am going to just lay it straight to you restoration is not bliss. Well not until you go through it, of course, no cheaters manual on this. Just right through.

Wanting to be beautifully broken before Jesus is amazing, and a huge step in life. It is a decision made out of love, a big one. To want to die to yourself because you have found something better. You found true life in Jesus Christ. Something worth living and dying for. Now that is love. To open up your heart deeply to the Lord Jesus Christ so intimately.

Not just say some sweet salvation prayer and continue life as you formerly knew it.

I commend you my brothers and sisters if this is you full of love. I send you my love, and bless you.

I never will regret submitting to Jesus Christ. That sacred special place. When I think about it I cannot breathe, I am so overwhelmed by His love and presence. Nothing in this world compares, to covet this world and its junk its all garbage! I can't imagine being without the Holy Spirit. Abba, Jesus, Holy Spirit. Brings tears to my eyes, because I can feel it in my bones the nothingness life is without the Holy Spirit.

I love the Lord Jesus so much I cannot imagine living without Him! He just has to be a part of everything I do, and I mean everything. He is the key to my life my heart. Nothing comes in or out without the Holy Spirits yes. My circle may be small but I'm in the best hands. My best friend is the maker of heaven and earth!

He is my breathe my life reason for living! Without Jesus, I have no reason to go on. Without serving Him and doing the Father's will all reason cease to exist. I am nothing without you, Jesus. I don't want to be anything without you. I can't and I just can't, I don't want to. You are in control the only thing I have to offer a Holy God is my life and affection. I can and will never go back. 

You have won my heart and I will never be able to express with human words the depth of affection in my heart for you Jesus. My heart is forever changed.

My Rose of Sharron and Lilly of the Valley. For you to part from me Jesus in any way in time or space would be cruel and unkind. I need you. You must take me with you wherever you go Lord Jesus. Leave me not far behind. If you did I would wander searching for water. Tracing the scent of your love.

I would fly to another country for you. I would fight for you. I would ride out to battle with you, for you. I would look at death in the face. I would do whatever I had to, to be where you are. My only delight on earth is to do the Father's will.

This may sound crazy we live together and we will die together. Our love makes me strong.

It hurts at first to submit to God. Even though we all know that He knows what is best for us. However real love hurts at first. Wounds hurt when they are not healed.

Sometimes they hurt from the shame, and guilt we harbor. They are ugly to us and we do not want anyone to see. They are not ugly to God. We get scared if we let God see, maybe he will find that ONE reason to not love us anymore. Like people and the devil. We are geared to be afraid that He will find that unforgivable flaw and decide like everyone else to not love us. Or that loving us is optional. Not true.

He is not like human beings when we expose our wounds. If anything all the more He loves on us. I look at my wounds and I think how can you love me like this? I have nothing to give you. These scars these imperfections. He assures me I am beautiful. Perfect in his sight. He delights in me.

Jesus already knows our story. Jesus knows everything. However, walking with Jesus through restoration and Him rewriting my story will be the greatest love story of my life. Please do not miss His gentle knock on your heart.

I remember not being able to let go and how relentless Jesus was. He never gave up on me. He knew why it hurt so much. He explained and comforted me step by step. He understood me better than I ever did, and still do.

Without Jesus holding my hand I would be lost, so many things revealed to me I was not even aware of. Faithful to the end obedient unto death all for me and you. He so beautifully danced with me through all my pain and the revelations to the depth of my soul and His heart. 

I trust Jesus Christ only. I do not trust culture or man, and I either did Jesus. He still ministered and lived an epic sermon and message that changed the face of humankind forever. I do not trust myself. I trust Jesus and that is it.

I want to share a little with those who have been abused and endured trauma. If the trauma has kept you from the love you so desperately need, deserve, and want.

For me, I got to a point where I could not carry the pain anymore and I had to grind it out, confront it. It was no romantic novel at first. It was painful and scary to give my pain away to Jesus. We get used to it you know operating with it when it is gone a piece of us goes with it. Certainly, a part that needs to go, but we can feel the part go.

Abuse will make us all suspicious but let me tell you God will take that wall down between you and Him.

He is not a man that He should lie! He is God. The lover of our soul. He is consistent, loving, no strings attached calling us all deeper into His love and mercy of what He created us to be.

Hang in there! It will hurt before it gets better. Like the cleaning of wounds, they must be treated with that Holy Spirit ointment. Sometimes our wounds just simply being discovered and exposed in the light is excruciating pain. Like vampires hitting sunlight, that is not the best example. Other wounds by disinfecting them hurts, just like a normal gash. Some require reopening, they never healed correctly. I found so much grace in the pain though my Abba He is so good to me.

He dotted on me so intimately.

He never gave me more than I could handle and He was always gracious enough to really use my sleep time as deliverance and healing time. He knew the weight of the wounds that they were so heavy, and how deep my heart is. He had that much grace for me, that He shielded me from as much as possible.

He was such a gentleman to every wound, a loving Father with such excellence, and tender knowledge, tending to each wound like a flower garden with so much love and care. Ensuring I was ok the whole time a great doctor. He had the diagnoses and the map to my healing and heart.

At first, when I felt the Holy Spirit calling me to my deeper purpose I did not cooperate. I was like oh no this is going to be bad. I fell so short. The truth is I was so scared. Thankfully I gracefully fell or got knocked down can't tell, either way, Jesus caught me.

It was an arm wrestle at first. Jesus was like Wanda-Ann you know what we are going to do today LET GO! And I would be like, oh ok, go for a run. Jesus would say come back to the secret place and I would say I am going to practice cooking the perfect flatbreads. It may seem stupid but I was terrified cuz I knew I was in for some pain.

Trust me just trust me, Wanda, He would say. I would flex my little pythons and arm wrestle and try to get lost in some distraction. I was willing to perfect everything but me. Thank you for mercy Abba.

We know how that turned out. Glory be to God.

Jesus wanted to bless me, complete me, make me whole. I kept running away from the depth of my pain I knew I had to look at. I would be in tears just bawling and angry with myself. I was so frustrated with myself. I could not understand myself. Why am I running away? Literally, sometimes physically. There were moments when I would get in my car and just drive with no destination, pull back in my driveway and be like what the heck are you doing?

My secret place was killing me inside. I had all this fear. The pain was so intense that it felt like it was going to overtake me physically. I want you to know for anyone going through this. The Lord Jesus taught me this, and I will never forget.

The Lord Jesus Christ will never let the pain OVERTAKE you! If you trust Him it may hurt and it may feel like it is about to, but trust me He will not allow it to. Trust Him the couple moments longer. He will never ever allow it to OVERTAKE you! He is God and has all authority He is in control.

The enemy will use pain to exploit and have dominion over you. The enemy uses our weaknesses to shame, to steal our confidence, and the Lord Jesus Christ uses them as a testimony for His glory. To discerning ears. The enemy will even lie to you about your healing and try to convince you that you are still broken where you are not. It's all to control you by your weakness. Jesus is King though and the darkness has no place near His beloved.

Our pain and trials are all a part of a beautiful testimony. Never let anyone try to control you with your pain, and disqualify you and your piece of work in the KINGDOM. It is not up to anyone but THE KING, JESUS.

I am very mesmerized of how special this portion of my life was/is because it is so exclusive. God did not wanted any dirty hands on me just His. Jesus Christ Himself. He wanted to tend to me Himself with the Angels of Heaven. I never felt so special in my life and His protection was like Father God on a whole other terrain. He truly was my rear guard.

Lesson one- Don't follow your emotional triggers, people, follow Jesus.

I had some intense healing and deliverance experiences, at times I would barely be able to pray, speak, put a sentence together. My body would be totally clenched physically as I lay weeping at the foot of my bed. Thank you Holy Spirit. God hears our silent prayers. By that, I do not mean excuse yourself from prayer and be lazy. I mean in your heart when you physically can't because of overwhelming circumstances.

Never excuse yourself from true prayer and worship! Ever. It is your lifeline Trust me I have been there the most excruciating miserable moments of my life.)

I went through these cycles of healing and deliverance, and it seemed not much progress at first. Looking back now I can see how I was getting a little better each time.

For every person, I suppose it is a different experience. We all are made in different ways and have distinct pains and hurts.

I was one of those people who thought healing was one big boom. It can be for some, it can also be unintentional and unconventional. The Holy Spirit knows your language. Sometimes we see how the LORD moves in other's lives and we get a little disappointed when the same recipe is not effective on us. Our Heavenly Father has His own ways and I am not here to figure out the whys. I am His servant.

The biggest devil sometimes is SELF. I am my worst enemy, most of the time.

I remember one day being in my secret place with God just heart wrecked. I mean torn up. The Spirit came over me and I said to myself laying in the fetal position in tears, that is it. No more running I AM NOT running this time. I was overcome by His love and healing.

Taking a deep look at yourself facing some not so beautiful truths about ourselves is painful. In our society, we are so doped up on self. It makes it much more challenging. We are surrounded by the lies of self every moment of every day. Especially in the church healing and deliverance have become a business. Trying to entice and seduce us. We are taught to lie and put our make up on and pretend it is well.

The funniest revelation is restoration because it can be mistaken as a demonic attack! I thought I was being attacked at first. IT WAS ME!!! My flesh it is our biggest obstacle, not an already defeated foe. Unfortunately, we are not released from our flesh until our expected ends.

We fall apart to fall back together all to be wonderfully reconciled to Jesus Christ. His pure bride.

A death happened. I died. I do not even know who that person was under my skin. I am brand new. I am alive unto righteousness.

We are His decisions, treasures, Not mistakes.

The good news is that Jesus comes right where we are

His divine providence is all around us.

To my brothers and sisters in Christ who are struggling through the isolation or pain of restoration and inner healing. I bless you and I know the Lord will bless you through this. I send you my love and pray that the Holy Spirit would give you the courage and strength to stand or lay down. Whatever you need. May he wrap you with Holy oil and silk and just lavish you in the Father's love. May heaven sing a lullaby over you.

Just trust in the Lord He is faithful and his love endures forever.

Heavenly Father in the name of Jesus,

Thank you for real love and that you give it to us freely. I am so thankful that you do not love us as the world does. Your love is strong and honorable, protecting. You show us what real love is made of. Blown away by your strength. A mighty man of valor is nothing to you. Thank you for your arms that wrap around me and embrace me, even when it hurts to be loved. How you never let me go, and you always give me hope and whisper your love in my ears. You call my name and know my needs. I pray that each of us would just fall into you. Help us to just lean on you Jesus, you can take it and have it all. Thank you for leaving the 99 for the 1. I pray Father that you would touch the lives of your children in a way so powerful that testimonies are created, and miracles manifest now, In Jesus name. Light up our secret places let us heal like the eagles.

Transformations are taking place, healings, and deliverances are happening. Open our hearts to receive the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. I pray for Father for those who have not known you. I pray Holy Spirit that you would give life to lost and broken, poor, the hungry, the thirsty, in the name of Jesus. Every knee will bow and every tongue shall confess you, Lord Jesus. You always come to us. You're our ROCK and we will not be shaken our firm foundation. My prayer and heart is that all the lost would know that they are loved, you love them. Nothing, and I mean nothing can separate us from the love that you have given us Jesus. You reign. I love you I bless you. I pray that the love of the Father would continue to flood our hearts. Let it transform each of us until we light the sky brighter than the sun, set us on fire Holy Spirit. Let us be refreshed and renewed into whatever the potter desires. I pray with thanksgiving glory and honor and praise be to you.

I decree and declare in the name of the KING of KINGS and LORD of LORDS

Jesus Christ

We give you all honor and praise bless you, LORD,

Amen & Amen.

Bless you.

A woman of God nested with the eagles tucked in the shadow of the Almighty.