The Love That Tells Truth

2022 I said the year twice thus far. This is a lot when you live in a murderous nation. The truth still remains that I am securely held by You. You will always be the realest part of my life!!! Even when this world tries to pretend You are the smallest part of my life. I could just lose my mind right there when I think about it, You are the furthest thing away from small. We both know this to be treacherous and untrue.

I am thankful more now than I have ever been about our words, promises and revelations that You have gifted to me throughout years of my life. They remain stronger than ever. This is Your Way. My love for You grows every day. All of the things that were made to destroy us always turn out to be the the all the things that made our love all the more epic and on time. It is so big it just cannot be ignored.

To the world You are some rumor.

To me You are my very existence.

I cannot even count on both hands how many times You have saved my life. Not because I deserved it because You love me.

Every single time You taught me more and more about myself and You. No debt, not once. Just love.

I recently was thinking upon the time we were walking through the streets in New York City.

I remember long before we even got to places the things that were unfolding on the earth. How You smashed through hell for me. How You shook the earth.

I remember before the plunge before I have to pull my chute, the place called our red zone.

The place that we go where every single fiber inside of me feels like its over. When I no longer can trust my own body as I propel through the air at such speeds, hoping my brain will remember to pull the cord on time. You are always there, right in this space where air is thin and I feel my fragility.

The deep deep waters.

Where when I look at it in my own strength and carnality it seems impossible it seems larger than life like they say It is You sized which I believe is the right place to be. The place of one of the deepest forms of love that is only found in You.

That when we get to this place that You are the same God who delivered me time and time again. You are the same God who loved me back together again and again. You are the same God who smashed through the deepest pits of hell. You are the same God who picks me up 7 times. You are the same God that confronts giants. You are the same God who supports my fragile little body.

That when we go through and through we go I am reminded of great beautiful truth. You love me enough to never lie to me. As much as this can be painful and heartbreaking to both of us You stand and so do I. You pull back the cover and no matter what we see, I know I can trust You. trust You to never leave me nor forsake me. Regardless of what my flesh man tells me You are right there. You intently watch me.

You have some much faith in us, I am so thankful.

Never changing but I am changing for Your glory. I am "supposed" to feel many things. But it is funny because the only thing I feel is Your love. I am not them just us and it is becoming more self explanatory as the world spins as it does.

I love how You can just stand there and look at me in a crowded room unaffected by all the noise. The noise doesn't move You one bit. You just stare more intently. At times I can feel Your eye and somehow I feel like a child, a little eagle with a headphone.

I know the world thinks I am crazy, and they hate You and they always have. I can hear them. Yet You are pulling me in closer to Your love.

Trust, Faith, Love.

I have these three. Your word is everything, priceless and nothing and I mean nothing can or ever will change that.

Thank You for all the love You have gifted to me.

Jesus Christ Forevermore.