To You

A today and a tomorrow. I find myself in this odd sort of feeling....is it necessary I do not think so considering. To feel small yet large to understand my very tiny place on this massive expanse. An island a dream, an idol and the world.

This intoxicating state of being in a world that makes no sense. It never really did. To stay thankful and to stay true. To wonder to create to evolve to move on to be. Defining and redefining. Knowing I am very loved and very hated. To experience the tastes of being fully alive.

I am fully alive in all ways, to feel the pull of sorrows smothering like gravity. Hearts of stone too hard to break. The heart beats and is felt. Mine still and always will beat for You. To know that I am just Me.

In a world that uses the past as a cement block to drown one into the deep. Knowing these things no longer serve purpose or life. For they have all died and have already been paid never to be revived again. To leave the grave and walk in new life, in the middle of much death and suffering. We have conquered the grave.

If the past is life than there is no more living, if backwards is forward then direction is missing. May I never feed past and only the present and the future knowing that it all is surely in Your hand. I am loved. Ripping away all the weeds so new seed will flourish a painful yet delightful experience. To challenge and to believe to partake and to refuse. To be reproached and to know.

Above all the chaotic noise of humanity and its voices. Your voice is loud and clear. Perhaps misunderstood but it is clear. I love you forever and no one will change that in any way although the world wants and tries to. Who can stand compared to You? No one.

May I remember humility the true kind, and not that fake stuff. The kind of humility that comes from knowing the fragility of being a human being. The beauty of weakness compared to Your strength. Imperfect yet perfectly loved. I can hear the hatred.

Jesus Christ Forevermore